One Month


Your smile melts my heart

Your smile melts my heart

It’s been one month my darling since the day you left, the most difficult time of my life.  Almost every waking hour of every day since, I’ve thought about you.  About how beautiful you are.  Your tiny hands, your soft skin and your contagious smile.  About how short your life was.  I will never understand why you were taken so soon, but I will always recognize my part in your dismay.  I missed being there for you.  I missed being an influence in your life.  My mind is full of “what ifs” and “should haves”, and they replay in my head over and over.  I’m sorry my love for falling short of my responsibilities.  I’m sorry for letting you down. I promise baby that I won’t let your life and death be in vain.  I will do all I can to live a life that honors your memory.  I love you forever.

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My Biggest Problem



One of my biggest problems has always been my inability to hold back my feelings about things that i should keep to myself. I have always had the tendency to share too much and too soon about personal issues, feelings, plans, etcetera to friends or even strangers, and have been quick to give someone the benefit of the doubt that they weren’t going to use that information against me in some way. Call me naive, but I have always assumed that if in any situation where someone had to make a moral choice about something,  they would make the choice that I would. It’s just the way I’m programmed I guess. Without making myself more than I am, and also acknowledging how I’ve fallen short many times throughout my life, I have tried to be forthcoming, honest, trusting, generous, kind and anything else that describes the qualities of a good person. At the same time I have assumed, or taken for granted, that everyone else generally living with the same mindset.  But I’m realizing that this way of thinking is flawed and has rarely worked in my favor. One reason is that there are people in this world that seek out and take advantage of others as if it’s the thing to do. I’m embarrassed to say that there have been several times through out my life when I have allowed myself to be manipulated by people like this, and every occasion has ended with me in a worse place than before, and realizing it was too late to do something about it. I’m realizing even this late in life that their are people in this world that live their lives at the expense of others. These predators, consciously or not, recognize weaknesses in others that they exploit for their own personal gain. This is the only way they know. It comes as naturally to them as breathing. They are so good at manipulating their environment and the people around them that they go unrecognized until there is nothing more to gain. They only move on when they successfully convince the rest of the world that what remains of the person they have damaged is at fault for everything for everything going wrong with the world. Although it pains me to know these people exist, I can only feel sorry for them and try to salvage anything that they haven’t already destroyed.

There is a special place in hell for these kinds of people. 

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